Di Crema Gelato and Hot Dogs

Enough said.

For some strange reason

I can't respond to comments. Does anyone know why?

Also, I've been nauseous every day all day for the last 3 days. :( Sad Doris.
But I'm POOPING!! :) Delighted Doris.
My dreams are way wacky. I think I need to exercise every day so my body wants to rest instead of dream it's little head off.
Sometimes, I miss my mom. I'm glad she's only 40 minutes away. Once I'm out of my housemating situation I'm heading to her house and then Miriam's house for a sleepover party.
We move this weekend. I tell my little one, "We're going to live with Daddy soon!"
 She/he is very excited about this.

Tid to the bits

I thought I'd be on here blogging every day. Nope. I am finding myself to be too busy. I'm also frequently tired.

We are also house hunting. I'm counting on securing a place within the next 3 days.

 Bringing a baby into the world sure takes a lot of energy. I'm growing the placenta for the little bean. My goodness, my body is working. How did my mom do this 5 times? WOW.

Yesterday, I told my little brother I was preggo. His response was complete awe. He is so precious and is full of love. He said, "I can't wait to meet the beautiful one."
Life is good. God is taking care of me and I feel gratitude even when I'm crabby.

 Oooh yeah,
Sometimes, I talk to the bean in English and sometimes in Spanish.
I intend to start learning songs to sing to it. I also want to play piano for him/her. Today I played a little guitar and sang. I think he/she liked it :)

Peace out ox

Goodies

Okay, okay, I'm digging this going to be a mom thing. I like that there's a little bean inside of me growing all sorts of stuff. My bean is a little tanner than this photo ;) So, this creation is the size of a pinto bean and my uterus is the size of a grapefruit instead of a fist. Awww so, it's eyelid folds and ears are forming and the tip of it's nose too. Little dude/dudette has elbows and beginnings of fingers and toes. Awww!

Today, I took my baby to the mountains and hung out in nature. We found the perfect spot to camp in. Marcus helped me put up my tent. I'll be hovered by momma trees. I feel protected. We'll (baby and I) return to the camping spot on Wednesday for a retreat.

Today, I put out into the universe that we are manifesting a loving home and I contacted a prevous housing manager and I think things are underway! Hip!Hip! Hooray!

Baby feels happy and less stressed about that...because I do :) I'm currently reading, "The Secret life of the Unborn Child" that one of Marcus' clients gave to him to give to me. (Marcus already read 1/3 of it.) It talks about how aware baby is right now and how my feelings impact baby. It also talked about the importance of my relationship with daddy and making sure baby knows both mommy and daddy's voice. It was the cutest thing the other day to see Marcus talking to my lower belly and singing to it too. Awwww! Cuteness.

Also, I've decided to get a sonogram to see what the sex is. Initially, I was against this and Marcus was for it. However, Chris, my friend from Blue Man Group, talked about how he wanted to learn what the sex was when he was becoming a daddy so he could bond as soon as possible with baby. Ya know, have more of a connection with baby. I want that for Marcus and wee one. So, once all my insurance stuff rolls through and it's near time to be able to identify baby's reproductive organs, I plan to have 1 sonogram.

Tonight, I wrote my dear friend Kelly about all this constipation and farty stuff that is going on. She gave me great advice and was humorous too. I am so darn grateful for her and the mommas that have come before me.

My mom called me today saying that I could shop in her closet for maternity clothes. She said that she is a little big and sometimes buys maternity clothes that fit her. She's so dang cute. I may be needing some clothes soon. I'm also planning on purchasing that maternity band so I can still wear some of my own clothes.

Okay, time for bed and good dreams. Thank you God for the gifts you have blessed me with. ox

Here's a little bit more about my experience of being prego.

Sometimes, a pregnant momma has some complaints:

Like what the hell is up with this nausea?
And why am I waking up at crazy hours and unable to get good restful sleep?
How come I sometimes want to strangle people?
Can I please take a break from my senses being assaulted?
Why is meditation so damn difficult?
Because I pregnant dammit.
And this is supposedly a blessing.
I know darn well, that it will become more apparent.
It's just that I'm tired of feeling teary and not knowing why.
It's time to surrender...surrender to no longer being single,
to no longer only being responsible for me, to having to communicate and compromise with my firey partner,
and to let go...let go, let go, let go, and let god.
May thy will be done, not mine.

Nausea, sleep, fried food and blessings

Holy moly my.

Today I woke up nauseous, bought lemonade, and biked to Marcus' house. He made my hangry self a yummy egg burrito. Hangry=hungry+angry. I felt much kinder after eating. My nausea subsided. Marcus was happier too. :) We had cuddle time.

Then, I was off to safeway where I by chance met a fellow AA'er and we had lunch together. She's been sober 11 years. AWESOME. I ate mac n cheese, potato wedges, and boneless wings dipped in bar b que sauce. WOW. (Makes me want to vomit now, but it was satiating at the time.)

Following the fried lunch, I biked home for a 2 hour nap. Drool and all. My mom texted me to see how I was doing. Sweetie :) Then I got up to make a meal for my friend Arpita who just had a baby. She said she wanted to see me. Yes! That means that I might get to meet the little one. I cooked up some turkey sausage, basil, sauce, and spaghetti, a salad, bread, watermelon and lemonade. And YES! I met Khalil. He is perfect. His lips, eyes, hair, ears, nose, skin, legs...everything is simply perfect. Ahhhhhhh. Arpita is a fierce warrior to push out that 8 pound baby.

Then I headed to a Latino AA gathering where I was reminded to pray and meditate and to thank my higher power for all the blessings in my life, not only when life is good, but most importantly when life is hard.

Following that I met Marcus around 9:30 and we went on a hot date to Taco Bell. I know! When was the last time I hit that joint? YEARS. And it was so damn good.

By the way, I really love Marcus. God just dropped him in my life at the perfect time.
Thank you for all my blessings.

Going Away

Marcus and I are going away for the weekend. The laptop stays here. The cell phone will be turned off.
We're headed to his parents cabin in Lake City for rest and ritual.